RedTory & Kafuka

Haha, long time no update the blog. Here we are at the RedTory!






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Location:員村，天河北

Home in bed with iPad

It's good and fun to meet the High School buddies especially from the same classes. Catch up and see whats going on for us. We found we dun change much. Same old people inside.


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Location:Dyer Ave,Kowloon,Hong Kong

Men At Work Miniature

Men At Work Miniature
Originally uploaded by Jitterousperth

Been working all day, half full time half part time due to dead line...I brought the tripod and the long range gun for this.Lay out the tripod at the overbridge where busy people passing through and spotting what I am doin....and I smoked enough fumes also...

Orzabal - Tears for Fears

Orzabal
Originally uploaded by Jitterousperth

Enough tears have shed throughout the 5 months since last year the breakup. Now she has her new life, I have my new life.

Starts all over. I am not happy. I am sick...

Smith, Tears for Fears

Smith, originally uploaded by Jitterousperth.

That night was tired to the bones. After work hurry to the hall for the show to begin. Had the neat Quarter Pounder Meal, then took the shuttle. The show started around 8:45pm and there they were. Met Guy, the editor on sports section of SCMP, he was recording the show with his iPod. And funny thing is the old man dressed funny singing and dancing beside me.

Rage

The speaker fell off and got smacked. It's all in the rage.


-- Jitterousperth's iPhone

Very obvious

It is apparent. The things we both undergoing are on the same patterns; only vice versa.

That one is obviously attractive on certain extent that keeps her connected and attached...but not caring enough, that's a trait of a typical bad boy:)

Whereas me is still a caring type but unfortunately not attractive, a huge drawback to lay attentions upon.

So her move is always finding a backdoor to fulfill her comfort zone, that is unfortunately, me.

Be wise, how and what she wronged you in the past. Same as the married one, she admitted and that was the truth even on the unmanned speaking. That was not important anymore. I do not care, why should I care, it's simply none of my kind business anymore :)

It is a game afterall, and now I am start learning the rules. Do you?


-- Jitterousperth's iPhone

A loss of Identity

I did nothing

Finding a new way

Headless Hips, originally uploaded by Jitterousperth.

I am lost in my 30's....abandoned repeatedly, lost my feelings and my heart...once I put my devotions on it, then been turned against me in a bad shape...I am..in a bad shape now...

Yesterday went to Shenzhen for a studio shooting, and realized only would be good if the studio consisted of myself and the model; then would be more flexible and easier for leading the model in my command for different positions...other than that, it would be a mess.

Today is Leo's wedding.

Impossible

Impossible, originally uploaded by Jitterousperth.

I am thinking nothing..when I came to recall the wound under the chin..a small hole, in a pink flesh, and blood...well, her sister was in shock; be honest that was unexpected to me how deep was the wound...another unexpected is another guy came in, appeared to be someone I heard of...when three of us left he stayed there for a while beside the bed, that was a real weird moment...the reason I was there

Leakage

It is deflating...with my head upon the sheet.

Achieved nil so far, for so many months staying paranoid...

I am in a never-ending coma unwilling to wake up...

Look outside the windows is still transparent...or is it?


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1 Week to Marriage

1 Week to Marriage, originally uploaded by Jitterousperth.

This taken yesterday at the Harbor with heavy fog. Do I look okay?

Guilty

I deleted few of the photos taken before; in fact someone been asking me why still have new updates of those, new ones or re-edited ones, I lied. No point of fitting a room inside of me for what is done is done, I should move on, and face myself. Myself is hideously ugly and ashamed...faithless and staying low, not wanting to meet anyone, and not wanting to talk to anyone...The soul is even hollower than before.

I remember that night on the way home, numb and unspeakable...when the picture comes again in my vision, I smile...in my face...

Just like today....I only see darkness

心。刀

Feel upset....


-- Jitterousperth's iPhone

Kenji

Yesterday went to QE to see his father, quite in a bad shape whom is still suffering from hemorrhage and in a coma ever since. His kid came to my house with his grandma playing around.

文華咖啡

Today afternoon went to an old 茶餐廳 in Hung Hom where there is a kitty who keeps jumping to my lap, massaging & resting. Several times I put him back to the ground then a while later he would jump back to my lap again...weird cat, his paws wetted my pants.




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Gal named Swallow

Age 20,slender & small; with a thick eye brows & lovingly smile...

She called today just to say hi...


-- Jitterousperth's iPhone

Model Shooting

It was a hot afternoon with a group of 20 people at the Park. First time having fun in 2 months since the saddening incident, partially due to the fact I met people with same topics and also a chance for using my camera.

I arrived way too early at 1:20pm, only to learn their habit of gathering a photo group, everybody was not to late...luckily, we started the shooting at 2pm.

B L U R B - this dream will move on

Always receiving Blurb's post letters announcing their season's discount, too bad I can only make one book in several years, a collection of many so-called masterpieces from myself; and this already dedicated to Yan. And unfortunately she is nevermore belongs to me. This is not sad, at all...

For that memorable book still stored in the database on Blurb, I am planning if in case I have extra money, I shall order a copy of the book. Afterall, that is my piece, crafted with my heart and soul....I never been so focused and devoted before, except for this girl.

Good things awaiting

Strangely today, starting to feel relaxed and relieved, partially due to the decision to delete something to get rid of, and hopefully for the news by earliest tomorrow on the new post.

It is not my fault. I wish myself best of luck.


-- 發送自我的 iPhone

Chilled

Deck n Beer, another Guinness.
It seems thought and shadows in my head, unwilling to escape inside of me. People walking passing by, chatting at my back... Wanting to sip for a fag...another 5 years, and another failure.
Life is long indeed...and time is slipping with a prolonged moment, wanting to stop it...freezes for an instant, in an blink of an eye I van let go, can I?



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位置:梳士巴利道,,香港

Season Finale

Finally I cannot hold it any longer....had something important and expected to receive a call or anything but in vain waiting until the final moment.

I made a several calls and deleted the facebook and also msn. This act is to eliminate my unrealistic thoughts upon her, any longer. Nevermore....

This is how it feels like, again, to be broken...

Wednesday Morning

I cannot blame anyone, this is the karma I shall say.

From now on, you are on your own.

Forget any so called love, it's a hoax. Just as I fooled with, once.
:)


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位置:Man Tai St,,Hong Kong

Sunday Night

We met at 7 hung hom station, feeling just like old times only one thing different, I behaved very well. With last night's men talk, I elaborated a bit to her.

We had a beer first while she being upset while waiting for dinner which is annoying. I do feel offended, unlike the old times. Cool down a bit and received the call from the restaurant with the vacant table.

Very good on the food they served.





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Location:Hung Hom

4 AM Sunday Morning

Indeed very tired from the outside，had a beer then hit MK for night serving. We had beef chunks. Then took him to the nearest hotel and we both taxied home.
Called it a day! Since 2 pm onwards working for Eleanor at her office.


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Location:Home

31 Dec 09 Declared Death

I wore black and met her by the Charter Bank for her Insurance Policy, the way she signed was like a divorce papers to me. Afterwards we headed to Starbucks for a final coffee. There she made up her mind to stay single. I judged that from my last 2 days' observation via the phone conversation. She was calm and never wanted to see me in person, stay aloof...I let her think and she made her choice, in fact we both made our choices.

I came to ask her the reasons, why on earth? Why all of a sudden? Why on the last day of 2009? Why have to be on the same month after I lost my job? It has to be a bad timing, a very fucking bad timing indeed for me....I never stay happy throughout this month..I feel desperate, and helpless....and there another great thing happened comes around...she loses interest and refused to resume....very indeed meaningful...to me as a leaping development.

Am I not doing enough? I keep asking myself...maybe I am stupid, in fact I think I am...once again, I have a string sense of feeling stupid and rejected....very very nice indeed...and Should accept this failure...or what are my choices anyway?

I swallowed them all, at the cost of ripping my heart apart....

More negative dismays are waiting for me to catch up...

And I am the only one, alone in the Dark again....